3 months & growing fast!

Emma will be 3 months old tomorrow and I can hardly believe it! She is changing so much and nearly every day there is something new. She has started laughing and wants to chuckle but can't quite figure that out yet. She watchs Bella play around her and turns her head to our voices now.
She LOVES the morning time and when we go into her room and look over in her crib she gets a really big grin. She doesn't stop smiling all morning until her first nap. When we get her out of her crib, we bring her in to our bed and play with her for a while. She talks to us and smiles the whole time. It is now our favorite part of the day as well, even though we are not morning people. Emma still loves bathtime as long as the water is really warm. She loves her pallet in the floor so she can kick her legs and arms which she does constantly! Just in the last week she has started grabbing on to her blankets and clothes to put them in her mouth and if she can't grab that, she'll just stick her fist in her mouth! If she could ever find that thumb, she'd go to town on it! Our biggest change and greatest news is that we went and saw the GI specialist, Dr. Higgins, who I was greatly impressed with. He little intently to our story of Emma's bad reflux, the vomitting, the screaming, and the fact that she only eats 1 to 3 ounces every 3-4 hours because she acts like it hurts to eat. He told us to add 1 tablespoon of cereal to every 2 ounces of formula, double her medicine, and he added one more medicine. So, we came home and started with the next feeding adding the cereal. At first, she was not one bit interested in that weird texture "stuff" we were trying to feed her. We spent an hour figuring out the perfect "cutting of the nipples" to get the right flow for her. After another hour of her figuring out that the milk was different, she finally took to it and now LOVES it. She eats 4-5 ounces every 4 hours now! Needless to say, we may have a chunk on our hands here pretty soon!

Mark and I are staying busy with work and everything else. He is working really hard to sell his bike and I am staying busy at work with lots going on. The holidays are approaching and so the hustle and bustle begins. We have family pictures on Thursday afternoon and then I have our bi-annual Hospice Memorial Service to attend and speak at that evening. Between Mark's schedule, my work, my on-call, church, and our families, we are finding it hard to have days to just do NOTHING! Wonder if they will ever come? Nevertheless, we are incredibly blessed and life is good!

I will post more pictures soon! I'll take some tomorrow maybe!

My pea in a pod is 11 weeks old!

Emma Grace turned 11 weeks old on Halloween. She is SOOO precious and is smiling so more, even though that isn't all that much....:)....she has her daddy's serious demeanor!

She came down with an ear infection over the weekend and so we didn't get to take her to Trunk or Treat at church but I still put her in her costume and took some pictures. Because she was sick, my mom and dad came over for the evening and kept Emma while Mark and I got out and went to a Halloween party at David & Tiffany Dyess' home. It was a lot of fun and was a good chance for Mark and I to be around some people we didn't know very well.

Mom brought Bella Mae a new toy and she is OBSESSED with it. I'll take a picture soon of her with it and post it on our blog! She's a hoot!

I mentioned Emma had/has an ear infection and so I posted a picture after I TRIED to get her to take her medicine! HA! She did NOT like it at first but is much better at it now! She is on so much medicine right now and I feel bad for her. She takes the Reglan and Prevacid for her reflux, the Nystatin for the thrush, and the Amoxicillin for the ear infection right now! I know what it's like to have to take tons of medicine from my younger days and it is not fun! Poor baby!

A couple of the pictures are before church on Sunday when she wore a headband and bow for the very first time and didn't scream her head off when we put it on her! She actually did really well and never made a peep with it on! Maybe she'll get better about wearing them....they are sooo cute!

I tried to put her in her bumbo tonight and see how she liked it since she loves sitting up so much! You see how that went over! She was not a fan. I'll keep trying though.

She loves her bathtime and you can see how relaxed she gets. She LOVES to have the hot washcloths on her belly and head! It's so fun to watch her in the water.

She changes every day and even though I'm happy she is growing, I am sad to see it go by so quickly! Seems like we just came home from the hospital. She has changed so much lately and it is one of the most joyous things to watch her grow. Mark gets to stay home with her on his days off and for that, I am truly grateful! She LOVES her daddy and thinks he is about the neatest thing...which I agree! He is such a good daddy and I cannot complain at all. He is so good with her and just has the "instinct" in him. Sometimes I just sit back and watch them play or talk to each other and my heart melts away. My Dad and I have that "Daddy's little girl" relationship and I'm blessed that Mark and Emma will have that too!

I go to work every day and visit and care for patients and families who are going through death and dying and I can't help but be more in the moment at home. So many say they wished they had more time, or they aren't ready yet. Are we ever ready to let our loved ones go? I just don't want to say I didn't live life abundantly if someday, God forbid, it is cut short for any of us. We care for pediatric patients and having a baby makes those much more emotional for me. I'm blessed by that 9.8 pound baby that cries, smiles, talks, kicks, poops, and stares up at me! I want to remember every day that she has been lended to me as a precious gift to raise and love. I will love her in every single way I know possible and never give up on her no matter how old she is or what she does. I promise to love her daddy more and more each day and be grateful for every joy we have, every hurt we endure, every goal we accomplish, and every day we live!

K

Emma is 2 1/2 months old!!! Gone by so fast!

It has been so long since I have posted anything! Hmmm...new things in our life? Well, Emma is growing so fast. We went to her 2 month appointment at Dr. Landry's for her first set of shots. She screamed so hard they had to slap her back so she would take a breath in. Broke my heart in a million pieces....and of course, her Daddy was working and got to skip the event. After it was over, she did great and they seemed to not bother her at all. They weren't very impressed with her weight of 8 lb 8 oz at 8 weeks so they told me to start adding calories to every feeding. We have been doing that and boy, has she gained! We went in today and she was up to 9 lb 8 oz. One pound in less than 2 weeks. Not bad! We went to the doctor because even though her pooping situation has improved to 1 diaper every 2 days, her reflux has gotten increasingly worse. She has started projectile vomitting after her feedings and only eating 1-2 ounces every 3-4 hours. I was impressed and couldn't stand to watch her cry and throw up any longer. The doctor got us in this morning and they have changed her medication to 2 new meds and also have scheduled her for an appt with a GI specialist at a later date! I just want her to feel better and I will do anything to get that! I'll keep you posted on how she does. Besides the health issues?? Emma is smiling a lot now and makes me that happiest person in the world when she smiles at us. She is still in newborn clothes even though some are getting a little tight. She is sleeping about 6-7 hours at night and then goes right back to sleep after a bottle for another 3 hours. She loves to lay on a pallet in the floor and watch football on TV and talk to the TV....so cute. She hates the hiccups, which happen frequently. She is most definitely a daddy's girl and it melts my heart to see them together. Our lives have been so blessed by this little girl...we just had no idea how much happiness she would bring to us!

Mark is enjoying the fire department and got his first real fire on Saturday, which was only a pile of carpet set on fire and a couple dumpsters on fire. Not anything huge but a fireman will take any fire, any day, over a medical call! It's in their blood! Mark got sick with "flu-ish" symptoms for a few days but is better now.

I have gone back to work full time now and even though I hate leaving her, I know she is being taken care of. Her daddy is home with her most of the time but 7 days a month, she goes to either our friend, Tiffani's or our friend, Karen's. They both live close by and she has done great at both! Work is good for me but hectic at times. As admission coordinator I get all of the admissions so I get my hands-on patient care as well as lots of office time. It's a good medium for me.

Mark's Gran is in the hospital right now and is still waiting to find out why her Sodium is so low. We are praying hard for her to get better and gain some strength back. We need to go see her so soon! She hasn't even been able to meet our sweet Emma yet.

Off to bed...I think I've highlighted to major things. No, actually, I'm sure I've missed something but I'll add it later.

I'm posting pics from recently. The naked ones are from the doctor today and the most recent. Look at that double chin!

Incredible people

Today I have had several things that have truly amazed me and touched my heart. Since I'm laying in the recliner sick with aches, fever, and swine flu, I've been able to catch up on my shows that I DVR. There has gotten to be alot saved on there because of us not having the time to watch as many as we record.

I started out with all my Oprah's. I don't watch them all but I record them and then go through and watch the ones that sound interesting or appealling to me. I watched them all in time to watch today's show. WOW! Anyone else watch these incredible stories? My heart was truly touched by these families who have overcome GREAT obstacles. From taking in your parents 9 severely disabled children after your parents were gunned down and killed, to nearly dying in a plane crash and almost burning to death but surviving, to sitting in the wrong seat on the plane and the man next to you adopting you a few months later. I watched and listened to all of their stories and it makes me want to be a better person. I am put in situations every day, some that I don't even realize, where I could help people. Sometimes I feel sorry for myself about having to work or being in a lease that prevents us from buying a house for a few more months or not having enough money to do it all or not having enough time to get everything done that I need to do or not getting as much sleep as I would like to get some nights. AND THEN I HAVE A DAY LIKE TODAY.

I look at the 27 year old girl and her husband of 2 years on Oprah, whose parents home was broken into and they were shot multiple times and killed in front of their adopted children. She and her husband step up to the challenge and raise all 9 of these children, some with down syndrome, some with autism, ADHD, behavioral problems, etc. There are medications that are liquids, patches, capsules to open over food and eat. A 4 year old with a feeding tube that needs to be fed every 3 hours around the clock through it. Her parents will was void due to it not being witnessed correctly, there was no life insurance policies, they recieved $1100 in donations after the incident. They both work full time outside the home but have 2 mortgages, 2 utility bills, etc because they can't sell the home they were living in prior to this happening. They said the electricity bill for the house they are living in with the children, which is her parents home, was $1285 last month! That is more than a lot of my friends mortgages.

I listened to the story of the husband and wife of 9 years, with 4 children, who were on a small plane that crashed and exploded. He had a broken back and 30% of his body was burned. He helped save his wifes life by getting her out of the plane...with a broken back. She had over 80% of her body burned and laid 3 months in a coma and a year later, looks completely different. She said she had a vision and there was someone there with her that told her she could continue to live but it would be a hard life, or she could transition and move on. She chose the hard way and said it was the easiest choice of her life because she had a husband and 4 children waiting for her to get better. With her face so scarred that it doesn't look like the same person, her husband looks at her with so much love and pride. He is so happy to have her here with him. Her children beg her to pick them up, which she can't do because of her skin still healing. It takes her 2 hours to take a shower and do all of the painful scrubing, applying ointments, etc that she has to do every single day. It takes her 3 times as long to prepare her kids lunch trying to open ziploc bags and cut up apples. And yet, she does it with a smile and in the most loving manner imaginable.

And then the 15 year old girl who was on her way to a shelter for foster kids in Tennessee where she was going to live after bouncing from one foster home to the next. She sat in the wrong seat on the plane next to a chatter box and at a time when she didn't want to talk to anyone. He asked her what she was doing and she told him. He said, "What would you like to happen?" She said, "I'd like a family someday." He went home, told his wife, and began searching for her with only her first name. He found her and year later, after being emptynesters, they adopted her as their own. She got her family from sitting in the wrong seat on the plane.

After I watched the show and cried the whole time through, I decided I'd better go get my medicine from the pharmacy that they owed me from yesterday. I sat in the drive thru for about 10 minutes, which seemed like an eternity. In my head, I was saying "Don't they know people are sick and don't want to be waiting. Really? How could it take this long?", etc. I got to the window, they sent my prescription out and I said, "What do I owe for it?" They said, "No ma'am. The lady in front of you said to keep her credit card number on file and to pay for the person's behind her prescription no matter the cost." I couldn't believe it. It must have been her random act of kindness for the day and what a nice one for me!

So today I commit to being a better person. I often have heard people comment "There just aren't any good people out there anymore!" What a false statement. There are incredible people all over the place. Seek them out, pay attention, surround yourself with them, be one of them!

Best year of my life!

One down, many more to go! Today, Mark and I have been married 1 year. Yes, only 1 year. We had planned on waiting 3 years to have children and, well, we waited 3 months. Nevertheless, we have a beautiful baby girl and wouldn't do a thing different.

Last night, my best friend, Brianna (Onny) kept Emma for us and Mark and I went and had dinner at Texas Land & Cattle. One of our first dates was on the Riverwalk on Valentine's Day and that is where we ate. After dinner, we went to the movies and saw Love Happens (which I highly recommend). It was a really nice evening to get out of the house and get to have a night with just the two of us to celebrate!

Today I sat in church and reflected on the last year with Mark. We have done so many things in that short time. We started our marriage by coming home from our honeymoon and got extremely sick for 2 weeks with a Mexico stomach bug and let me just tell you how romantic that was to experience together. :) Three months after our wedding, we learned we were pregnant. Two months after that, I moved to Lubbock to begin working to start saving PTO for maternity leave. Mark completed the hiring process with Lubbock Fire Dept and in fact, is on his first shift right now for the City of Lubbock. SO, in a short year, we got pregnant, both changed jobs, moved cities, lived in 3 different houses, and had a beautiful daughter.

Here are just a few reasons that I fell in love with Mark and reasons why I love him more and more each day!...
- He loves God, his family, his friends.
- He is almost always happy!
- He would give anyone the shirt off his back.
- When there is something he doesn't really want to do but he knows it is something important to me, he does it without ever complaining!
- He looks at me and just smiles and says, "You're so pretty!"
- When he does something to make me mad, he just lets me fume for awhile and then says something really funny and I've calmed down by then and can just laugh.
- He is the BEST daddy to Emma Grace!
- He loves my family just as I do.
- His family has taken me in as their own!
- He is affectionate in public and at home!
- He kisses me every night and every single morning!
- He fills my car up with gas because he knows it's my least favorite thing to do.
- He randomly gets me flowers, sometimes for no reason at all!
And finally
- He is Mark Darrel, and there is NOTHING I don't love about him! He is a great husband, my husband. When I picture our next year and another 20 after that, I picture him by my side through every good moment and every bad one as well.

I looked up our wedding vows that we personally wrote to each other on our wedding day and I read them and cried tears of joy. I believe these to be true now even more than the day we said them to each other! I will share...
Mark's vows to me:
"I Mark, take you, Kara Marie, to be my wife, my other half. I promise to be your best friend. To always be there for you, through all the laughter and happiness, as well as the hard times. I promise to always support, encourage, and push you to attain your goals and dreams. I promise to do everything I can to make you happy, even if that means buying you a new pair of shoes every now and then. I promise to listen to you even when you might think I am incapable of doing so at times. And when the time comes, I promise to be the best father that I can be and to always do everything in my power to better our family. I promise that the first and last thing I do each day is hold and kiss you. I pledge to always be faithful, and to never leave your side. I've never met anyone like you Kara. You have all the qualities I've ever wanted in someone. I love you, and I vow to never stop loving you for the rest of my life."
My vows to Mark:
" I, Kara, choose you Mark as my best friend, my love for life. I promise you my deepest love, my fullest devotion, my tenderest care, through the pressures of the present and the uncertainties of the future. I promise to be faithful to you. I promise to love you, to commit to you, to support you. I pledge to respect your unique talents and abilities, to lend you strength for all your dreams. You have shown me what love feels like and for that I thank you. You are everything I need and at this moment I know all of my prayers have been answered and all my dreams have come true. I praise God for you Mark. For all your love and constant friendship. I know that our love is heaven sent and I promise to be here forever and always. From this day forward, you shall not walk alone. My heart will be your shelter and my arms will be your home. As I have given you my hand to hold, I give you my heart to keep."

I LOVE YOU MARK D!!!!!!!

Six sweet weeks

Today Emma is 6 weeks old! I just cannot even believe it has been that long. She is changing every single day and we are having so much fun watching her change and seeing how her personality is developing. She is sweet like her daddy and stubborn like her momma! :) She talks to us by cooing, she grunts and only cries when she is hungry, and she is especially dramatic when her daddy is around. If she isn't being held, she loves to be propped up in her boppy. She does NOT like her swing or bouncer yet but we try it every few days to see if she might change her mind. I remind you, she is stubborn. She's a messy eater and after many grueling tests, we have learned that her lack of pooping may just be normal for her. I never knew going days and days without pooping for a newborn could be normal but they don't seem to find anything wrong after her colonoscopy and abdominal xray. The barium swallow did show reflux which we are treating with medicine twice a day. She misses her MeMe and Pops and loves for her Grandma and Grandpa to sing to her. She eats about 3 ounces every 3 hours except during the night, she wakes up every 4 to 5 hours to eat, which is a blessing. Bella is getting attached to her and is quiet protective of her. Emma holds her head up for 30-40 seconds and looks around...yes, at 6 weeks. She pushes with her legs while on her back and can

scoot a lot of places and scoot out of her carseat if she isn't buckled in. Did I mention she is stubborn and if she wants out, she gets herself out?? LOL! She IS her mother's daughter I say! She has smiled once at her daddy but hasn't anymore and we are waiting to get that big, gummy smile. We are having a blast with her and just can't seem to get enough of her! Everything she does is precious and every day she does something new. We love you, Emma Grace!

Centennial Class

These aren't the best pictures because my camera was acting up but we gave it a shot! Friday, September 25th, was Mark's graduation from the Lubbock Fire Department's recruit academy. It was a 5 week "crash" course to prepare them to go on shift for LFD. There was 27 recruits, 26 men and 1 woman. Mark will be stationed at Station 6, which is on 35th & Indiana, and is on C shift. There will be lots of changes for him and myself from the way things were done in Kerrville. For example, the shifts here are from 6pm to 6pm, where in Kerrville they were 8am to 8am. This graduating class is named the Centennial class because LFD is celebrating 100 years of service this year. As Mark walked in in line, following the bagpipe and bass drum playing, my heart swelled with pride. I am so proud of Mark for everything he has accomplished and for choosing a career where he can serve and help people. A common theme spoken in everyone's speech at graduation was God and how important it is to keep Him center of your life. At the end, I was honored to go on stage and pin Mark's badge on him. I pray that as he begins his journey here, he and our family will be blessed. We do not know what life brings us, but I pray for thankfulness in good times, perserverence in bad times, and faithfulness in both!